Have you ever been called to do something totally outside of your “normal”, and then LISTENED?
I did and am I AM PROUD to say that I am one of the artists in The Divine Love Oracle Deck!!!!
I loved, loved art in college, always was taking something usually some kind of printmaking…yet I can’t remember doing any art since.
Then 4 or 5 weeks ago I saw a post about a crowd sourced and crowd funded oracle deck and without thinking I wrote something like. “This sounds like fun, let me know if you have any spots left.” Now, I have just started to use oracle decks, I find them a great tool for tapping into your own intuition, but I have never contemplated being involved with making a deck or talking about oracle. Logically I am a baby at the use of this tool but I didn’t worry because it seemed like the deck was already pretty complete.
Much to my surprize Amethyst Mahoney responded right away that a couple of cards were still open including “Laughter” and then I knew this was divine timing. If you have meet me in person or watched any of my videos you know I am a person who laughs and cries easily and frequently.
In middle school I was afraid of creating laughter. I really didn’t know anymore that people could be laughing with you. I always felt like they were laughing at me. I grew smaller and smaller. Then a met a lovely lady in my youth group, Reese. Reese accepted me for who I was: a serious, silly, earnest person who always wanted to be helping and doing. Life was fun again. And we laughed long and hard at times. We worked long and hard at times. Often we laughed while we were working. Life still wasn’t easy but it was easier.
Now, I believe that the universe has a sense of humor you can see if you are willing to look. I believe laughing at the absurd is so much better than crying or raging. There is nothing more refreshing than a full body laugh surrounded by friends. I believe remembering to stop working and see the brighter side of life can make you more efficient and effective. In all laugher is a large part of my life now. I even love to make my lead laugh while social dancing west coast swing.
Laughter was the perfect subject for me. And then the fear came….
The fear slowed me down. I procrastinated. I didn’t learn the software. I didn’t have anything except a design in my mind. I knew what I wanted the card to look like but had not done anything to make it a reality.
I thought I had more time but then I realized the card was late. I had to do my card in one night. My husband opened Photoshop for me. Learned to use hubby’s tablet. I tried to draw the laughing face I saw in my mind over and over again. I had something I liked…then the computer crashed. I had to start over. My husband wanted to help me so badly. He offered to fix my drawing. But I knew this had to be my art. I got something I liked. Yay!
Then for the rays. I had to learn to use photoshop. I couldn’t get what was in my head to show up in the design. I had to settle…My perfectionist hates to settle. Then I added the background photo and a different background photo, and another, and another. I didn’t love any of them. I had 3 that were ok. But I had run out of time…
My fear was strong and I wanted to quit. I couldn’t decide which version to send or even if I should send one. But once I make a commitment I really try hard not to back out. I finally told myself “Someone has to have the least creative card. This time it is going to be you.” That’s how I finally talked myself into sending the card into Amethyst. But I still could not decide which one. So I was embarrassed but I left the choice up to her.
She picked the card I was afraid was too boring. It was the one that hubby picked too. A couple of weeks ago watching Amethyst and one of the other artist go through the deck, that artist pointed out my card as one she loved. And I am laughing as I write this. We can make things so hard on ourselves. I can be absurd and stubborn but laughter won. It was all worth it!
I am proud to be part of this amazing group of artist bringing you a wonderful tool to tap into your intuition. I would love it if you shared this amazing project or if you are so called purchase a set. I can’t wait to get my Divine Love Oracle Cards!
